Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Can You Keep A Secret?
I was there sitting alone inside that bus and trying to feel the silence I rarely get on my way home. Someone came and briefly interrupted the quick meditation I was slowly absorbing. We talked and talked and talked. We might have become really close friends now or he could have stayed a cool acquaintance. I told him I have a boyfriend but he still offered indecent suggestions in the end … and that really turned me off. He tried to go further but I refused to go along with his thoughts. He invited me to drop by in his place. I asked why but he only inquired if I felt chilly. I don’t need a cup of coffee or any diversion that’s hot and stimulating, I said. He showed a disgusted face and turned away. Though it concluded that way, I was tempted deep inside. But devotion is such a divine word.
I knew how hard it is to resist temptation, but isn’t it great if you still see yourself as someone who somehow got soul, class and style (Ain’t No Other Man?) … and not as a classless bitch? There are a lot of gays who love to brag about their ‘sexcapades’ and who they had sex with. Though the storytelling always sounded entertaining to me, the idea of ‘kissing and telling’ always felt like unethical and uncalled for. I ain’t stereotyping though, for I also knew a lot of gays who were just morally upright and sensible.
But everything that is considered part of culture cannot be changed just like that. But I hope that once in their lives, gays would show some sort of discretion. Being out and proud is such a gracious thing, but no matter what we do, there are still those who couldn’t understand us … and won’t understand us.
at 8:14 AM