The Sweet Escape

Going back to the corporate world turned out to be less exciting and more noxious than going back to school. Both worlds require a lot of rules that you can either bend or adore. Each has their own agenda. Each sketched a small place for me … like I am no one but a slave. I have been into these opposite worlds before. In fact, I have settled into both places twice. But I am still lost like I was. I know there is a way out, but for now, I have to convince myself that the only way to get any further is to be a slave five days a week, nine hours a day. It is all stated on the résumé I passed to my current employer:

The ultimate goal will always be becoming a businessman, but before diverting my attention to any long term goals, I see myself spending all my energies working on something I really feel like doing – works and responsibilities that would directly affect people’s actions and perceptions. I want to influence, inspire and make changes for the better, and at the same time, learn new things. But don’t misunderstand me; I don’t want to be a politician. I intend to work in a company where research, technology, and innovation are most welcome.

But after a week of training, am I seeing myself spending all my energies working on something I really feel like doing now? I think so. But there’s one thing that’s really weird though. I was shouting at the top of my lungs early this morning: “WEEKEND, HERE I COME! HERE I COME!” Indeed, I felt like I was finally freed from that small world, and because I was locked there the whole week, the weekend appealed so sweet to me even when there’s nothing there.

Maybe if I have more resources, I already took that bus I saw early this morning and spend the rest of the weekend in Baguio. Too bad I am a poor kid, eh? But home is also a great place to be. My room was my sweet escape, a proxy paradise. I spent most of my time in front of my computer here in my paradise and listened to my favorite songs until I felt washed out and weary. I started downloading an Adam Sandler movie before I finally went to bed this morning and finished the download when I woke up this afternoon. My beloved ASO is arriving in half an hour so I should go and clean up. You know what’s gonna happen next, right? We’ll watch the movie, of course. LOL.